Was doing work @ my workdesk when i heard shrills of screams coming from outside of office. Peeped out through the window and realised that my p.m drove his pick-up and hit the puppy @ my site. To be exact, it was purely an accident because the puppy like to hide under the pickup. It should have crawled out under it when he started it, but it did not. As usual, it lazed under and around it. I went out to check on it, but could see it shunning away from us, because i feel the puppy thought that we are trying to hurt it, when it limped, it limped in agony. The look of watching it pains my heart, i realli felt like bringing it to the vet but i do not have so much $$. Guess i will try to find out more from the SPCA becos i think the puppy might have fractured its leg..

Didn't sleep much yesterday night, and i am currently super sleepy, dozing off anytime. Quarrelled with U-Know-Who just now and he really pissed me off. Anyway, i promised my consultant's resident engineer pei him go attend seminar. Keke, first time attending, realli hope that i will not fall asleep before the speaker speaks later. R.E's call yesterday realli very farnie..

R.E: jolene, xxx here, tomorrow u free?
Mi: huh? Oh, wanna meet up discuss the claim isit?
R.E: no "la" (i put inverted commas cos he never like to use singlish like lor or lah) , nothing to do with work, 2mr wanna go attend seminar?
Mi: what's it about? free seatings?
R.E: yaya, business auctions & stuffs; dun worry "la"(again), need pay $$ wont ask u go de... (walau, sounds like a very cheapskate; like if need pay he wont ask me (nabei!!))
Mi: huh? ok lor..

Anyway even though i am super damn farking tired, i muz go, because i've promised him to go, and its very bad impression if i never turn up. Furthermore, i thought got auctions held for the seminar for charity or what, that's why i agreed de.. End up it turned out not to be =_=".... haiyo, i still thought wanqiu will accompany me go.. but she also very tired...
Haizzzz.....

i was checking emails this morning when i came across this very lame email forwarded 2 mi from my friend; so i decided 2 share with u all...

Romance Mathematics
Smart man + smart woman = romance
Smart man + dumb woman = affair
Dumb man + smart woman = marriage
Dumb man + dumb woman = pregnancy

Office Arithmetic
Smart boss + smart employee = profit
Smart boss + dumb employee = production
Dumb boss + smart employee = promotion
Dumb boss + dumb employee = overtime

Shopping Mathematics
A man will pay $2 for a $1 item he needs.
A woman will pay $1 for a $2 item that she doesn't need.

General Equations & Statistics
A woman worries about the future until she gets a husband.
A man never worries about the future until he gets a wife.
A successful man is one who makes more money than his wife can spend.
A successful woman is one who can find such a man.

Happiness
To be happy with a man, you must understand him a lot and love him a little.
To be happy with a woman, you must love her a lot and not try to understand her at all.

Longevity
Married men live longer than single men do, but married men are a lot more willing to die.

Propensity 2 Change
A woman marries a man expecting he will change, but he doesn't.
A man marries a woman expecting that she won't change, and she does.

Discussion Technique
A woman has the last word in any argument.
Anything a man says after that is the beginning of a new argument.

HOW TO STOP PEOPLE FROM BUGGING YOU ABOUT GETTING MARRIED
Old aunts used to come up to me at weddings, poking me in the ribs and cackling, telling me, 'You're next.' They stopped after I started doing the same thing to them at funerals.

i am realli very tired recently... everything doesn't seem to work right for me, neither relationships nor @ work. Its not as if i do not have enough sleep, but i'm realli very tired mentally.

everyday facing my workload realli tires me the most.. i've been "bullied" by working colleagues, not all, but a few.. its not realli those kind of small children's bullyings, but just that even other people's work i still need to handle and do for them. yesss, that is much enough to tire me out mentally, despite having a boyfriend. because he doesn't understand me at all, and everything i do, he make me feel that he doesn't care. because whatever i do, always in the end, there is much for him to quarrel with me about.

like the incident which happened just now --> i asked him 2 watch narnia with me. He said wait for tomorrow cos he got no $ today. Then i asked, what's the difference between 2day and 2mr, i seriously don't see any difference with that because bottomline he oso got no $. Den i offered to borrow him first, then he said, " we better don't watch since both of us are broke." Ever since we're together, you all know how many movies we've missed? Maybe you all will think i not understanding, i realli dont mind missing out other movies lor. but the main point is, he still can go bowling etc. and what is 1 movie to him? i never hesitate 2 go dutch & because i know that its expensive 2 watch movies, that is why i suggest 2 watch movies on a weekday instead! is it that hard 2 understand my intentions?

eventualli i came to an answer --> ok we dont watch ba, cos $$ is important to u. the reply was, do you think that $$ is all i care? i never had that thought before lor, its becos i know that he need 2 fork out his dad's medical bills that is why i say don't watch. but that's all the kinda reply i got -> not even a "thank you!" the best part is he purposely go offline! what kinda attitude is that? fuck man *(&*&^%^$%#$. everybody who knows me know that i got a fury temper. all i am trying 2 do is just 2 make things work out between us. yesss i dont deny that i m broke, but on his birthday, i even bought a best cake (from angie) 2 celebrate for him.

wow, that is all i get in the end ~ msn chat slammed shut. i didn't even get 2 explain myself. oh ya~ i forget 2 mention i went 2 consultant's office and smoked before getting back 2 my office, but the last message i got was oh, you dont wanna reply ar? before the msn slammed.

it realli makes me feel guys are ungrateful ingrates who will try 2 take advantage of all your good intensions 2 possess you themselves. Fuck you guys! godamn fellows..

it had always been the same case.. i've always wanted to blog in interesting entries when i've got inspirations in my head, but whenever i logged in to blog --> my brain turned blank. hmm... now wondering how i should put them in words.

went to visit some "blogshops" this morning, and realised that i do not have the craving 2 wear "kawaii"/cute/fashionable clothes anymore. i do not know why, but just the thought of it doesn't matter so much to me anymore; perhaps i've realli grown up, because currently, i prefer to wear shirts (long-sleeved) to work. i feel it make me look "professional" keke i so bue hiao bai xD. but anyway, that seems 2 be a good news cos less urge/implusve buying = more savings.

i took a 1-day leave yesterday, but it seemed to be more hectic than my normal working day. apparently i had 2 wake up early in the morning 2 study for my advance theory, went to the bank, grabbed a lunch and rushed down for the test, i even rushed back after the test for my practical driving lesson. mummy was there with me, which makes me feel more pressured since if i were 2 fail de test, it would be a kind of disgrace for me as she was around.

keke, but this time, luckily for me... i passed! i can't hardly wait to take my tp test in october. hopefully by then, i can receive my driving liscense as my birthday present. anyway, passing de advance theory realli is another big step to my dream of owning & driving a car..--> i should save more $$ from now on..

i felt very pressurized now, after my s.pm told me 2be prepared to take over another contract's stuff. many people told me that its a good opportunity, but i am realli stressed up. i duno what to do or how i should feel. to me, everything's seem to come by so sudden, which is why i do not know how i should react.

This saturday's darling's birthday, i realli don't feel like going anywhere, but i feel there is de need 2 celebrate for him. maybe everybody will think de same way, but i duno why, all i juz wanna do is 2 be alone. (he can also celebrate with his friends ma). anyway, 2 summarise it -> i do not look forward 2 this weekend. i onli want to go and bowl alone. .

haiz, i duno why i m feeling all this now, perhaps i m all stressed up. but still, i am happy that i passed... cheers 2 myself!

Has been quite sometime ever since i listen to the latest jPop music, since i normally searched for albums by my favourite jRock artistes.. Came across this latest single by Koda Kumi the other day @ one of the jPop forums, and got addicted to it. I even downloaded this MV because its realli a very nice song ~ one of the greatest by Kumi again...

I love how she sings & dresses, and especially for this video... Its about a girl whom woke up and lost her boyfriend --> he actualli died.. then its kinda sad, cos in the video it showed how she cried, yearning for him 2 return; recalling all de happy moments they had...

Nevertheless, the last scene showed her smiling @ herself; imagining he was always there, like trying 2 tell him that ~ i'll be fine~~
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=PjHLR8-fmVE

I worked till 2230 hrs yesterday night and darling picked me off work. Somehow or rather, without my knowledge, darling and I were back together again.. Anyway i really enjoyed his company and we went 2 "the balcony" to drink and watched soccer. It was really fun especially the cheers from de group of frenchmen sitting in front of us.

Anyway, my mood was spoilt when i came to work this morning. Everytime it has been spoilt by this fucking bitch working in my company.

ColleagueA (to me): "why you always work till so late?
Colleague B (to me): "Yalar! Come early end late.. She come late end early. Saturday work halfday somemore.
Colleague A (to B): This gong gong still do her report for her..
Colleague B: -keeps quiet-

Nabei.. for your infomation i was late for work this morning. I called and informed that I will be late. I reached @ about 0855am. But guess what? That fucking bitch reached @ more than 0915 lor! Last time when i was late around that time, i tio "kaopei" by people, but for her - nobody say a single thing. Mine so big case till my deputy p.m. talked to me!! She everyday work 0830 reach 9++ no one comment a single sound.

Colleague A always did everything for her. Till now, he is also pissed off and said "I dunno" The worst part was how she replied me just now.
Me: Eh, please prepare the report for me lei. Your folder all photos, how was i supposed 2 noe which is which?
Bitch: Yar... i go site later come back prepare and slot them up for you.
Me: Huh? You not going prepare ar?
Bitch: Yar.. i prepare for you so you can do lor.. I very busy lei.
Me: I thought you used 2 prepare for XXX? This is your job lor, no matter how busy you also muz do ma. Anyway, consultant want, you just prepare.

I swear this time i am not going 2 be qingcai again. Keep quiet and do people take me for granted. I really hope she will just kena fired and sent back 2 her country. Go site really that busy ma? Stay @ site whole day eat snake ar? Always the schedule and PR works so messed up, end up the others clearing her mess for her. CCB!! I dunno how long can i tolerate any longer!!! Fuck that bitch.

bottled up..

i dunno why today i feel so energetic.. cos i slept almost 2am yesterday night, and if it were to be as usual, i would felt all drained up -> perhaps i was drained metally, i dunno what i should do today as my mind's in a blank, so i surfed the net and saw this little quiz that was posted in my friend's blog.
I tried and it kind of cheered me up a little..

Lets101 Quizzes - Myspace Quizzes For Fun

i broke up with my boyfriend again yesterday.. but this time, i dunno why but i am not sad. in fact, i felt a kind of soothe relief, and i felt not as pressured as when i was with him, anymore. its not as though like i dont love him that much or what, but just that our idealogy is too different.

i guessed that's what maked us quarrelled on many occassions. anyway, the decision of breaking up was agreed by both of us, so we are still friends. anyway, i was like hoping someday we would be able 2 continue on again.. he's nice i admitted, and he said i was nice too. this breakup make me feel that i seemed to be grown up, because i feel i wasn't that childish anymore.

i will be going down tanjong pagar 2 pay for my degree fees tomorrow, i hope that everything will go well then. all i could think of now is quickly fulfill my dream --> to own a degree.. then can't hardly wait to fulfill my wish of becoming an egineer -> provided that i can study civil engineering degree!

Sianzzzz Day...

Damn, i was so freaking pissed off yesterday --> Finally a day 2 go back early; I went back home about 7pm, hoping to play maplestory, but the fucking patch just couldn't start. Smsed all my maple friends, and all replied me the same thing - "nabei, cannot start lei!!" My maple jie even had an asthma attack!! LOl, she did not suffer it from maple though, but she was so excited hoping that she will be able 2 play it despite resting, but she just couldn't get it started. Eventually, I had my plans changed - the whole night staring stupidly @ my com watching anime and after that, doing nothing. In fact, I wasn't enjoying my self @ all because I looked so silly. Apparently, I had my anime playing but i was doing some other things and i never watch it anyway.

As for today, I dunno why, time just passes by very slowly... Aww.. its realli so slow i feel i could sleep anytime!! Stupid time wont budge an inch, just slowly slowly passes. I cant wait to go back early tonight to install maple and start playing again..

This morning, i called the school. Lol, called this director called duno Mr.Teng or Mr.Tang or what-so-ever. Lol, I couldn't care less anyway. Well, I will go down to the school this saturday to pay my fees and haiz, i guess i must give up maple 2 study le.. Though i will misssssssss it.. but i guess somehow or rather we need 2 give up something in exchange for another. Told my deputy p.m that i need to go off earlier this saturday because i need 2 go down pay for the school fees, but eventualli, he asked me a question, you sure you wanna study this and work as this profession for a living ma?

The answer is : LOL, i also dont know.. But Anyway... Muz give up something 2 exchange for another.

maplestory ---> University Degree

Greetings.. Hip-Hooray 2 My New Address

Greetings!! Miya's bloggie has finally moved..changed 2 a new address..

Hmm.. been's more than 3 months ever since i last updated my blog, there seemed to be quite a few friends whom dropped by and pop at my chatterbox..realli touched wor! Honestly, i'm not a keen blogger, but sometimes, i feel blogs are good for expressing ourselves.

Well, haha that's why ''xiaxue'' is so shrewd and such a bitch. Honestly, i don't like her, well haha i dont expect that she'll like me anyway. Popped by her blog sometime ago, becos i just wanted to see whether her writing style is realli that ''powerful'' and whether it will amuse me anyway. It turned out to be a nightmare for me.

Dots..before i actually visited the site, I expected her to be a polite, straightforward, outspoken girl whom got a talent in writing. What a joke! I don't understand why she's such a ''Wow''. Comparing her english and style of writing with those 'independant schools' like RGS and etc, her writing sucks!

Hmm, I think it will gives you a better impression if I express my views -->
- She's such a bitch and shrewd!
- A racist ; Doesn't respect other races & religion as well
- Thinks too highly of herself
- Just another vain pot; and honestly i don't think that she even looks pretty @ all
- Saw her ''plastic-surgery'' nose act on youtube, lol --> nose pretty but not her face

Bottomline, to me, she's just another bimbo with no brains.