i am realli very tired recently... everything doesn't seem to work right for me, neither relationships nor @ work. Its not as if i do not have enough sleep, but i'm realli very tired mentally.

everyday facing my workload realli tires me the most.. i've been "bullied" by working colleagues, not all, but a few.. its not realli those kind of small children's bullyings, but just that even other people's work i still need to handle and do for them. yesss, that is much enough to tire me out mentally, despite having a boyfriend. because he doesn't understand me at all, and everything i do, he make me feel that he doesn't care. because whatever i do, always in the end, there is much for him to quarrel with me about.

like the incident which happened just now --> i asked him 2 watch narnia with me. He said wait for tomorrow cos he got no $ today. Then i asked, what's the difference between 2day and 2mr, i seriously don't see any difference with that because bottomline he oso got no $. Den i offered to borrow him first, then he said, " we better don't watch since both of us are broke." Ever since we're together, you all know how many movies we've missed? Maybe you all will think i not understanding, i realli dont mind missing out other movies lor. but the main point is, he still can go bowling etc. and what is 1 movie to him? i never hesitate 2 go dutch & because i know that its expensive 2 watch movies, that is why i suggest 2 watch movies on a weekday instead! is it that hard 2 understand my intentions?

eventualli i came to an answer --> ok we dont watch ba, cos $$ is important to u. the reply was, do you think that $$ is all i care? i never had that thought before lor, its becos i know that he need 2 fork out his dad's medical bills that is why i say don't watch. but that's all the kinda reply i got -> not even a "thank you!" the best part is he purposely go offline! what kinda attitude is that? fuck man *(&*&^%^$%#$. everybody who knows me know that i got a fury temper. all i am trying 2 do is just 2 make things work out between us. yesss i dont deny that i m broke, but on his birthday, i even bought a best cake (from angie) 2 celebrate for him.

wow, that is all i get in the end ~ msn chat slammed shut. i didn't even get 2 explain myself. oh ya~ i forget 2 mention i went 2 consultant's office and smoked before getting back 2 my office, but the last message i got was oh, you dont wanna reply ar? before the msn slammed.

it realli makes me feel guys are ungrateful ingrates who will try 2 take advantage of all your good intensions 2 possess you themselves. Fuck you guys! godamn fellows..